Ohh , I am missing those days soo badly . Now you are gone , no more the laughter during night , no more morning wishes , no more goodnight kisses .
But , you are different , you got your love back . When , your love for me are all gone , the new love of yours , are making you much happier . I am happy for that , sayang .
I remembered , bila awak tak nak makan . Bukan sebab tak ada duet , just because awak nak jadi kurus , awak kata awak dah gemuk . Then , awak pon tak makan , then awak exercise too much . It make me worries , sayang . I am afraid you might get sick . But , sayang , for me , you are much handsomer , and you are much looking good as you are , when you just be yourself . I dont care how big your tummy was , I dont care , as long I get the love for me .
I remembered , bila kita nak keluar pergi makan mana mana jerk lah kan . Kita akan bincang sehabes baek lah . HAHA !! Sangat kelakar that time . Awak sangat excited . Then , when it was the time me and you when out , kita mesti akan terpakai baju warna sama sama . Ohh , that was soo sweet . In fact , kita tak pernah bincang pon nak pakai baju warna ape . You once said to myself . Well , kita dah ada insting masing masing . We can barely know , what each other want and need :) . I was just smile that time . And , I am still smiling remembering your words .
Awak ingat , our first date ? Masa tuh , awak ajak saya pergi Lubuk Yu . And , awak kate , awak nak hilang kan tension saya , so , you approache me to follow you there . At that moment , I was afraid to give you the final decision , but , you are begging me and kakak , then , you got the permission . You were soo much happier than ever . During the trip , you first touch my hand . I was shocked , but instead letting me go , you hold me tight . Real tight , it was like you were whispering that I wont let you go , as long I got my breath . Then , you asked me , what was my favourite food and colours . I was shocked when , you are typing all my favourite things inside your phone . That was very sweet of you , sayang .
Ohh ohh , awak ingat tak , bila saya tanya awak , What was your favourite colour . And guess what your answer . You are saying that , Since you are mine , I love purple and chocolate . Ohh , that was my favourite . Sama just like you . Purple and chocolate are now my passion :)
Ohh , I was like . I love you more and more Mohd Fariq Mansor .
Awak , awak ingat tak bila awak bagi saya the Pink Teddy . Masa tuh , saya baru jerk habes kelas , then , I needed you by my side , cause saya ada problems masa tuh . Then , you were there to listen my story . That time you brought along this huge kotak . Saya masa tuh , agak terkejut jugak lah . Cause awak bawak something along . But , saya buat tak tahu jerk , cause I miss you soo badly , that I wanted to see you soo much . Then , masa tuh lah , awak keluarkan that Pink Teddy . Sangat cute . Saya sangatsangat suke :)
Awak cakap dekat saya yang , teddy nih , ganti diri die if he cant be by my side , and also this Teddy jugak yang akan teman awak masa tido . Just anggap this teddy was me . That time I was crying , inside . Tak nak tunjuk dekat awak , nanti awak gelak kan saya , sebab saya nanges . Hehe .
Hah , awak saya tengah update blog saya . Ingat tak , awak pernah cakap dekat saya yang , lepas awak baca blog saya , awak nak tanam dekat dalam diri awak , awak tak akan buat saya sedih . Awak nak tengok saya happy jerk selalu , and awak jugak lah yang akan buat saya happy . Tapi , awak tak buat . Awak buat saya sangat sedih sekarang nih . Hhmph , tak a[a lah awak , asal awak happy dengan die , cukup lah bagi saya .
Hoh , banyak sangat benda yang buat saya teringat dekat awak . Awak , saya tak boleh nak lupa kan awak . Saya sangat sayang dekat awak . Walaupun , awak pilih orang lain , untuk awak hidup bersama , saya terpaksa terima . Saya berharap , suatu hari nanti awak sedar apa yang awak dah buat . And also , awak jaga diri elok elok tau .
Banyak sangat saya nak cerita perihal awak , but saya tak sanggup nak teruskan lagi . Saya tak tahan nak menangis lagi . Awak , awak tahu tak , setiap malam saya menangis kan awak . Tapi , saya okeh . Saya menangis sekejap jerk . Lagipun kakak pon ada , kakak selalu ada untuk saya . Walaupun , saya tak dapat lagi rasa sayang awak , but , banyak orang bagi saya kasih sayang mereka . Mereka selalu jaga saya . Sue pon sama awak , die selalu marah saya if saya tak makan . Hehe .
Awak , awak jangan maen maen study tau . Study betul betul . Saya nak tengok awak dapat gred yang bagus .
Awak , jangan lupa saya tau . Tolong lah , jangan sesekali awak terlintas dekat fikiran awak , untuk lupakan saya . Awak , tak ape lah , if awak tak sudi nak balas semua message saya , but , tolong jangan lupakan saya tau . Saya sayang awak selamanya .
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