I am getting tired of always searching what was my mistakes . Well , now I am telling you guys , who's to blame of .
Syazwan Anuar , you said that you love me . For the second time , a guy approache me by saying that . I love you , why cant you realise that . Hhm , mianhae for not realising it for the beginning . As you know that , my heart was broken because of the divorce . I tahu yang you selalu text I , you akan tanya I , as if I tak makan , you marah gegila , you treat me like I was your girl . I do realise that honey . But , I am afraid to admit the feeling , cause in my head I had the thought , that you must layan I macam tuh , because it was the real you . Treating everyone else as nice as you can .
Then , one day , you prove to me that , my thought isnt wrong at all . You memang sayang I . Yep , that was you yang cakap macam tuh dekat I kan ?
Since that day , I've tried myself to love you . I tried not to hurt you . I tried to make you happy . And you did that too , right ? Thank you for that , sayang .
Hhm , soo soo many times , we will faught for things yang remeh kan ? But , we managed to recover it all . We just forget all the things yang kita gaduh .
Then , one day I asked you , am I really your girl ? Instead of getting the yes answer , you just cakap , I akan sentiasa ada untuk you , if you perlukan I . I akan sentiasa jadi your baby , evethough , I dah jumpa someone that really suit me for who I am . I sangat marah that time . Seems like , you macam main main kan I . Then , siapa I untuk you ? What was the proved you cakap you sayang I ? But , I takut that all the question , I might lost you . So , I just senyap . I takut you tinggal kan I .
Sekarang you betul betul tinggal kan I . You senyap for these past days . I tak tahu apa salah I . Did you know how much I risau dekat you ?
Sayang , I dah penat . Sorry , I just cant wait for you any longer . Please , dont remain silent if I really meant for you . I tak sanggup lah macam nih . Apa yang I should do ?
Too many of my updates are for you . Dont you realise that ?
I cant barely putting all the sadness inside my blog lagi . I want happiness in my life . A pat month , I thought that you might give me back my happiness , but it not for a longer time , kan ? Tak apa sayang , I really appreciate all the things we chat , we argue about . And thank you soo much for making me feel th warmth of your caringness .
Sayang , I hope this is the last time , I'd talk about you . I am finish , now .
Saranghaeyo ❤
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